#and ive tried but im in 3 days a week and no one has capacity to help me and its like hgggggggg im gonna lose my job bc no one has helped me

[jemamore]

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[aria-ashryver]

Tuesday's here, so.. how are you feeling? Did you get to see that grandma again? 👀

Hiya kitty my love! This post is coming to you ⭐️ LIVE ⭐️from the chemo ward!!!

The grandma is not here today hehe. I suspect she's doing 3 weekly chemo - I'm here every week bc of the "it's probably stage 4 cancer" thing, so my treatment plan is comparatively intense. I'll keep an eye out for her 🤭

Things are going well! Well? Kind of well?

My chemo is working and I'm in good spirits!! However.... i did have to have some extra tests and obs this morning bc I've been having some (lowkey potentially serious) chemo toxicity reactions this past week. Namely, my heart rate is a bit high and occasionally erratic, and I have some tingling nerves/numbness in my right hand (both things to keep an eye on, as chemotherapy can affect the capacity one's heart can effectively pump, and can also cause permanent nerve damage in the hands and feet.)

(Makes writing hard 😡 stupid caesar)

No need to worry though! The doctor has seen me this morning and given me the OK to push ahead with treatment. I have simply decided that I am Too Tough For This Shit, and apparently the doctors agree I can handle things 🎆🎉

ALSO my heart rate may be high rn because MY NURSE FOR THE DAY IS SO PRETTYYYYYYYY oh my gosh. she came up to me when I arrived, showed me her name tag on her 🌈 rainbow lapel 🏳️‍🌈 and was like "Hi Renee, my name is Vidya, you can call me either Vidya or Vid - is there a preferred name you'd like me to use?" and I was like hell yeah I've found my people

(Ooh, behold my other name ✨️ Aria lore unlock)

She told me she loved my hair 🥺💕 she's super gentle and she keeps praising me, and she straight up held my hand when she put my IV line in!!! 😭😭😭

so like... naturally im planning our wedding 💁‍♀️💌💝

My veins have decided to up and quit lmao, I had a blood test yesterday, and had to get a gang of very sweet phlebotomists to juice me like a feral bastard orange bc my veins just refused to fill the vials, no matter where they tried 😅

But you know what's super cool? My tumor is like half the size it was already. GET WRECKED CAESAR YOUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED 🔥🔥🔥

Soggy tuna sandwiches for lunch today in the day ward. I can hear Cas’s disapproval from here.

As always, sending you hugs! (And hugs for anyone else reading this who wants one, you deserve all the hugs 🤗 )

[bubsub69]

Entry 35

6/12/2023 00:15 Why the hell did i think it would be different. why would we go back to talking regularly after she ghosts me for almost 2 weeks i wish i could just move on, but i neither want to nor can find someone else, i browsed through fetlife and stuff and tried messaging some poeple yesterday but no luck there either… one of the scammers from telegram posted a story about needing a 'favor' and theyll dominate for free… the favor is most likely asking to borrow an account for posting on reddit because of karma requirements because shes posted another story asking that… asking about the favor seems really tempting for some reason, i dont know why im interested in someone that charges and is dishonest, probably because of despair, you know i dont even know why im being anonymous about her its @goddessclaire8 if someone shares this telegram accoung a) she charges and b) is dishonest. you know what fuck it im just gonna ask her to see if thats what she wants.

tomorrow im gonna have test, which means i should stop writing and maybe go over some stuff, but who has the mental capacity for that amirite… im really getting sick of some stuff at college, too many teacher just expecting you to know not explained stuff, but everyone somehow already knows it, maybe theyre not lazy fucks and actually look up relevant stuff and you know learn outside the classroom which i dont really do.

ive been talking to some people online but i still feel really lonely, i dont know if i just want deeper connection or just physical touch, i dont know wtf i want anymore…

dad kind of demanded i go to a therapist but i refused… honestly i dont even know why i did it, maybe a bit of a mix between thinking they wont be useful and they'll share stuff with my parents which means i wont be able to completely open up, tbh i dont want to completely open up to them either, not gonna share that im desperate sub and that im touch starved and stuff, i guess i could keep it to myself and its not like id impact the effectiveness of therapy but who cares stubborn brain wont let me get help, all i need is touch and gf and im fixed, classic solution.

also the discord thing didnt really work out, havent talked there, cant do it. also kinda sucks that most people dont really talk back, its hard to be the one that always starts talking, and ive only kept contact with 2-3 people, some didnt even reply to my heys anymore so i guess i was just too boring as usual. damn just remembered theres someone that would always start and we havent talked in a bit should text him tomorrow. And i guess i should just go to sleep, not being eepy is proabbly gonna do more good than looking at some stuff in a hurry.

maybe J will text me on sunday again… that seems to be the day shes usually free… maybe ill get that video call… i also had to wait a fair bit to talk with D so… i just have to be patient… again… like ive been… for a month………. itll be worth it in the end………………………… i hope

[therukurals]

Tagged by the very cool @dingyuxi​ (thanks fam!) 

and tagging some mutuals off the top off my head no pressure! @melonatures​, @deokmis​ @gimme-a-chocolate​ @forursmiles​ @digimoo​ @junghaesin​ @rain-hat​ @mockingjaypin @roarofalannister @seongwu

1. What is the color of your hairbrush? I have a couple, but one is red/black, one is blue, and the other white/gray

2. Name a food you never eat. Okra, my mom promised me I’d grow out of my distaste but im 26 and its still no

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold? too cold I am a tropics baby i thrive in heat (i know i live in the midwest) 

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? trying to unclog our pipes with a bladder and some amateur plumbing 

5. What’s your favorite candy bar? uhhh, anything chocolate but the kinder bueno ones

6. Have you ever been to a professional sports game? A couple, mainly basketball and went to one american football game because bb bro was too young to go by himself and i just sat and read a book

7. What is the last thing you said out loud? My roommate and I are dealing with a plumbing issue and trying to fix it and I have a call soon so I said let’s pause and come back to it later. 

8. What is your favourite ice cream? Green tea followed closely by coffee. 

9. What was the last thing you had to drink? Water

10. Do you like your wallet? Yeah, i like its. its long and solid

11. What is the last thing you ate? a chocolate chip cookie

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? lol no

13. What’s the last sporting event you watched? uhhhh idk, not an actual match but i think some mbappe highlights? 

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? ooooo classic butter or kettle. 

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to? uh it was a group chat with my colleagues 

16. Ever been camping? Yeah, when I was young. It wasnt straight camping it was at a site and it was with my girl scout troop lmao

17. Do you take vitamins?  not regularly, sometimes some vitamin c if im feeling a little throat something coming up or iron before i donate blood 

18. Do you regularly attend a place of worship? Not in a religious way? and when you do community organizing/work you are in a lot of churches and they always pray at the neighborhood association meetings. 

19. Do you have a tan? lmaooooo. i am blessedly melenated and usually get a nice tan but its winter and lockdown so ive lost some of that :_;

20. Do you prefer chinese or pizza? lmao im with sam on this question, i dont like this question cause its a false equivalency and definitely chinese because the options??? and chinese food is so good???

21. Do you drink your soda through a straw? uhhh....not really? usually in a glass or in a bottle. 

22. What color socks do you usually wear? girl whatever socks i get, they range from black to white to pink to gray they dont match 90% of the time

23. Do you ever drive above the speed limit? wouldnt you like to know

24. What terrifies you? on a philosophical level seeing my loved ones hurt and failure. more physically? frogs freak me out, people in easter bunny costumes, clowns, and medieval plague doctors, actually the concept of existing in medieval Europe terrifies me 

25. Look to your left, what do you see? im on our large conference table and it has a bunch of stuff but immediately to my life is my phone, some pens, my bullet journal and my copy of “collective courage” 

26. What chore do you hate most? Washing dishes!!!! And compost 

27. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? idk??? steve irwin? 

28. What’s your favorite soda? Root beer and vanilla coke

29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Drive thrus, because im probably already out and around doing errands. 

30. What’s your favorite number? 13

31. Who’s the last person you talked to? My roommate, again about this plumbing issue. 

32. Favorite meat? I really dont have a preference tbh, depends how they are prepared

33. Last song you listened to? Do it on the tip by Megan thee Stallion ft the City Girls

34. Last book you read? In the middle of a reread for “Collective Courage: A History of African American Cooperative Economic Thought and Practice.” by Jessica Gordon Nembhard and just starting “Caste: The Origins of Our Discontents “ by Isabel Wilkerson. 

35. Favorite day of the week? Saturday 

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards? maybe if i tried really hard but im not going to try 

37. How do you like your coffee? With a little bit of creamer and sugar, like a decent brown color. I like the flavor of coffee so i dont want it too diluted. 

38. Favorite pair of shoes? uh, dont really have one but something i can slip in and out of lmao

39. Time you normally get up? around 8/8:30am but in my heart id like to wake up at 10 or 11 ;_;

40. What do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? Sunsets!!! also sunrises involve me getting up early and im not doing that hell no

41. How many blankets on your bed? Two since its winter, a comforter and a thick wool one. 

42. Describe your kitchen plates super basic white round plates. 

43. Describe your kitchen at the moment messy, we havent been able to wash our dishes because of the plumbing issue so hopefully that can be fixed today

44. Do you have a favorite alcoholic drink? mmmmm, idk? i have grown to like a good whiskey, usually a bulleit bourbon or this one bourbon w get from a local distillery. really any dark liquors, i will not do beer that shits dissssssgusting

45. Do you play cards? not regularly and i have tried to learn how to play eucher and spades and each time ppl explain it to me i forget it the next day and i just dont have that kind of brain capacity. 

46. What color is your car? uh.....so i live in a commune basically lmao and we share vehicles so i personally dont own one but the couple i share with some other folks is Black and gold

47. Can you change a tire? Yeah, one unique thing about my parents were they were very fair around gendered roles(especially for south asians), so my mom was strict with my brother around learning how to cook/clean and my dad taught me how to work on cars/maintenance work around the house. so i can change tires/oil/do other car work  

48. Your favorite state or province? i really like the pacific northwest and miss it.

49. Favorite job you’ve had? being an instructor for a course on globalization in college! also idk if i can classify what i do now as a “job” because its....unique but that too

[yourjughead]

Lockers

Requested from Prompt list: 91 and 100 - Sweet Pea x reader.

Thanks for the request dolly!

A/N: Lot of dialogue and time hops in this, hope its not too difficult to follow. this is also quite long so i couldn't separate the dialogue like i usually do, my apologies.

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Riverdale High had become like a cattle market. The school was at maximum capacity and it was felt easily in the overflowing halls and louder than usual common room. It was suffocating and with the lack of space came sacrifices elsewhere such as motorbikes littering the car park, crowded common rooms and sharing lockers. The latter was what affected you the most.

“Im telling you Fangs, Jones is losing it, it's his fault we're in these uniforms” the two sauntered down the hall before arriving outside locker 216, next to the janitors closet. He crumpled up the paper with the combination and threw it at Fangs, just missing. Students flowed passed the two of them as Sweet Pea fought the lock. Fangs said his goodbyes before leaving the spot you quickly replaced.

“Emm can I help you?” Sweet Pea rolled his eyes before turning to the sound of your blatantly irritated voice about to snap back. His eyes widened and his mouth went dry at the sight of you looking at him like he grew an extra head. He just continued staring before gliding out of your way to the locker. You just gave him a confused smile before tossing some books in on top of the few he had managed to get in.

“Emm Yeah you can take your crap out of my locker” he found his voice again after watching you before handing you back your books.

“its my locker” you threw the book back in, the two of you locking eyes and thus, the love hate relationship began

2 Weeks later.

“Seriously Sweet Pea, stop leaving half-eaten food in my locker, you'll draw mice!” You threw the half eaten burrito in a brown paper bag into his chest.The other Serpent's ooohing at you asserting yourself.

“Firstly, OUR locker, secondly its MY locker I'll do what I want” he was clearly putting it on in front of his friends as he tossed you back the burrito. You purposely let it fall to your feet before exhaling sharply and storming off, Sweet Pea hot on your heels, the Serpents making whip sounds and hollering.

“Wait I'm sorry yn, I'll try and stop doing that I promise”

“Yeah you better you jerk!” you hit him into the chest before retrieving your books from the locker. “Maybe we should just get a mini fridge”

“Or you could get a clue" you rolled your eyes before sauntering off, knowing his eyes were fixed on you.

A week later.

“YN!!!!! WHERE IS IT!?” Sweet Pea shouted at you from the front steps before almost running to you as you got out of your car.

“wheres what Sweet Pea, I don't know what you're talking about” you tried to be as nonchalant as possible but he dragged you by the arm to the side of the school.

“WHERE IS MY JACKET! My Serpent one! I know you took it!” you bit your lip before finally giving in, sighing and retrieving it from your school bag.  

“Okay okay sorry, i was cold after cheer-leading last night, I didn't think you’d care”

“Oh...emm...well I do” he wasn't entirely unsure of himself and couldn't settle on how that made him feel. He took the jacket from you looking down at its worn leather.

“Well I have to wear it to a thing tonight but-but umm I’ll leave it in my locker after if you need to wear it again” he slid his arms inside his second skin, caught slightly off guard the slight smell of your perfume on the collar. The two of you idled to the locker in silence.

1 week later.

“Sweet Pea I thought I told you that you have to ask me before you borrow my books” “Sorry, I had a test earlier and I needed your notes” “What you need is to learn to make your own” you dug through the locker as he had his back thrown against another alongside yours.

“Will you help me? I just want to do okay here yanno? Don't want to be stuck here with you forever” “Oh wow stop with the flattery ill get a big head” you stood smiling, locking the locker again.

“Whatever can you just-” “Aww look, Sweet Pea has made a friend” Fangs interrupted swinging his arm around Sweet Pea.

“Hey wait you're that girl ive seen in the Serpent jacket” he moved from Sweet Pea and seemed to almost square up to you, other serpents gathering.

“Yeah Sweet Pea said I could wear it” you were not even slightly phased by his attempt to intimidate you, you were close friends with Cheryl Blossom, Fangs wouldn't be a problem. Fangs looked to Sweet Pea like he had 3 heads, the group doing the same.

“Emm no I didn't yn” it was your turn to look at him like he'd grown a few extra heads. He felt guilty for lying and making you look bad in front of his friends, he just didn't want them to know he was falling for you.

“See, Sweet Pea wouldn't associated with the enemy. You should really be getting to cheer Northsider, don't trip on your privilege as you go” you scoffed at fangs, grabbing your gear bag and bumping Sweet Peas shoulder as you went.

1 week later

You hadn't spoken to Sweet Pea since, you didn't like the way he changed around his friends. He had tried to make contact with you every day including leaving you notes and doodles in all of your notebooks. He then opened an almost empty locker, the last bell on a Friday sounding off behind him. You passed as if on cue behind him, laughing with Cheryl on your way to cheer.

“Yn what the hell? where's your stuff?” he reached out catching your forearm, Cheryl almost snapping his neck on contact.

“Take a hike urchin boy, she doesn't want to speak to you” you looked at the floor allowing Cheryl to bite back, Sweet Pea biting his tongue as not to offend you further by mouthing off to your friend.

“Okay well could you tell yn that I’m sorry and i really want to talk to her” he look directly at you but spoke to Cheryl, she rolled her eyes before going to speak again, you cutting her off.

“Its okay Cherry, go start training the juniors, I'll catch up” she assured you meant it before scowling in a way only she could and then leaving you both outside the locker you once shared.

“So, emm where's your stuff gone?” he waited until the red headed bombshell was gone before speaking again.

“My car, i was sick of having my stuff vandalized” “Okay okay fair point...but maybe you could put it back and I'll promise i won't draw all over it...as much” he grinned at the little smile you gave, happy to be finally breaking you down.

“I thought you wouldn't want to associate with the enemy”

“Well I mean you piss me off but id do anything for you...even associate with you”

“Yeah well-” “Shit!” Sweet Pea suddenly caught you by the forearms and dragged you back and into the janitors closet then releasing an arm, closing the door and pulling down the little blind.

“WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!” “Shhhh shhh sorry please be quiet they'll hear you!” “Who?!” you whispered slightly separating the blind slightly from the glass to see some Junior Serpents joking around in the hallway.

“You have to be fucking kidding me Sweet Pea!” you went to unlatch the door but he pulled you back again, standing in front of it.

“I know I know but I just want them to leave us alone” “We’re not an us! We just share lockers, i wasn't even talking to you two minutes ago!” “Why are you so difficult?!” “Why am i still in this closet should be the real question?!” “UGH!” he caught your shoulders and hauled you forward to meet him. Your bodies were flush against each other as his lips met yours furiously. Your own arms wrapped around his sides and the two of you seemed to melt into each other. He backed you gently against the shelf, moving his hands to your face, connecting his lips to your neck.

“Wait wait Sweet Pea what the hell are we doing?!”

“I-I don't know but I'd very much like to keep doing it” you laughed agreeing before he kissed you again. Suddenly light flooded the closet and you both turned to the now open door, Fangs standing there reaching for something.

“Sweet Pea?! YN?! What the hell is happening?!”. “N-nothing Fangs” Sweet Pea almost left his body with the fright, you deciding you had had enough. “Go away Fangs kinda busy”

“No dude what the hell?! A Northsider?! What about the pact?! No Northsiders!” “Yeah well that was before I left a burrito in my locker!...Well it's been nice seeing you, come back soon!” he closed the door again before Fangs reopened it.“No dude seriously what the hell?!” “No dude seriously what the hell?!” you spoke again more bitterly and Fangs glared before Sweet Pea tried to close the door again, fangs stopping the door with his foot.“Sweet Pea, what, what is going on between you two?”

“We-we don't know right now but I'd really rather stay here Fangs-” he glanced back at you “id really really rather keep doing it-” his voice lowered then “please Fangs” fangs seemed to grumble before stepping back, upset but he hadn't seen his friend like this before. Deciding to deal with him later, fangs moved his foot, the door finally closing. “Don't worry about him yn...ummm but what are we doing…” Sweet Pea finally spoke again once he sure Fangs was gone, allowing a little of his insecurity show. “I dont know, Im not really sure”

“Well maybe we should figure that out, i don't want to mess things up with you, you're difficult enough already” “WELL THEN LET ME SLEEP IN  YOUR STUPID T SHIRTS AND HOLD YOUR DUMB HAND, YOU PIECE OF SHIT”

“WELL THEN OKAY THAT SOUNDS GOOD TO ME!”  you dragged him back into you meeting furiously again.

“Oh and please, please always wear my jacket, its ridiculously hot...especially with that tight little uniform….the only thing that would make that uniform even hotter would be if it was on my bedroom floor” his face darkened and you smirked hard. “Well maybe we should- OH MY GOD I HAVE PRACTICE! CHERRY IS GOING TO KILL ME I LEFT HER WITH THOSE UNCOORDINATED JRS!” you burst out threw the door, Sweet Pea laughing hard at you panicked before you took off out the double doors. Sweet Pea returned to the locker, grabbing some books and then locking it again for the weekend.

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[quixotic--s]

2017

my year, reviewed

i tried some cool new things. i went out salsa dancing for the first time. tried going vegan, and stuck with it (for the most part!). i tried to learn how to read tarot. taught myself to sow. read more. took a stronger interest in genuinely just learning about stuff, as much as you can. i love learning.

i did some things that took guts. i came out to my family. i quit a job i hated.

i did some random but awesome things. i went with Watson student leaders, which i’m not even a part of, on a trip, and didn’t let the fear of not knowing anyone stop me. studying abroad gave me the courage to just, do stuff. went to st. louis, Missouri to observe an international school, refugee school, Waldorf and Reggio Emelia school. 

i became even more passionate about working with children.

i surprised myself. i started out afraid of a field experience with 2 year olds because i had no idea what to do with that age. i ended up become extremely passionate about working with 2 year olds, and pretty much fell in love with it. i was terrified of all of my field experiences this year actually, and ended up loving each one. i was scared to be placed in kindergarten cause i thought i wouldn’t be good at it. i ended up loving it. i was scared to work in a child development center with special needs because i’m not experienced. and i didn’t like the teacher i was placed with. but i ended up exceeding both my professor’s expectations. i did a really good job, and i fell in love with working with the children as always. 

i’m proud of a lot of my accomplishments. i reached out to the summer camp, preschool, and afterschool center Sola to see if i could possibly volunteer. for the sake of just missing being around kids. i volunteered every day in the summer. the director told me i have a good energy to work with kids. i came back through the school year once a week. i genuinely, whole-heartedly, and completely loved my experience there. and they even wanted to hire me

i got a job that i like. it’s not my passion, but i’m doing a good job at what im supposed to do there and i’m proud of that. my boss tells me i have maturity and poise and the members gravitate towards me and that i’m just doing an awesome job.  

i experienced so much joy. spending time with my girlfriend and my friends, and volunteering at Sola. i got to spend my birthday with Krista which is a tradition i wanted to keep on going. i lived in Wilmington in the summer again and went to the beach and swam in the ocean as much as possible. my friends from home visited me and we swam in the ocean. 

i matured in some ways. adult things i guess. i got a credit card. my first real apartment that’s off campus. i took interest in decorating a room and creating a space that feels like yours. i used to not value that. i love my tapestry.

i stopped going out all the time. that really kind of stopped for the most part in 2016. but in 2017 i finally accepted myself as i am with it. i learned to say no to a lot of things. i learned to stop making excuses and i don’t have to explain myself, ever. i take pride in being a homebody. look at all that i’m doing and accomplishing, without having to deal with hangovers, and the money i save. i used to feel so obliged into going out (clubs and bars) because of societal expectation. i think it’s a waste of time for the most part. but going out salsa dancing is fun, i’ve decided that. going out to do actually fun things is awesome, if i can stay awake for it.

i am confident with myself, more than ive ever been. i think studying abroad created a lot of that confidence. ive learned that pride isnt a bad thing and how to have a healthy amount of it. im proud of myself for a lot of things. im proud that i came out to my family. im proud that im comfortable in my skin. im proud that i dont give in to others’ expectations about how i should spend my time. im proud that i love to learn. im proud that i am extremely driven. im proud that i dont let others judgements about being vegan get in the way of doing what i know is right. 

i made friends in my classes. i became more social in that manner - talking to people in my classes. i love them. i learn from them. 

i did things for others, and made others happy. i taught children new things. i helped a 5 year old boy reclaim his love for the color pink. i wrote my grandparents long letters and my nana hugs hers everyday and my grandma was almost in tears when she saw i wrote her a personalized 3 page letter

....

and finally, i asked out a beautiful, amazing, talented, incredible, passionate, strong woman. the truest love i’ve ever had. it hasn’t been perfect, no we had a rocky start. but we didn’t give up, and i’m so incredibly happy to be with her. she loves me so much and i love her too. we rode out most of 2017 together as partners. it’s pretty remarkable because i’ve never dated a girl before, and i’ve never been in a relationship this long before. ive never been in a HEALTHY relationship for that matter. this woman actually values me, respects me, and has my best intentions at heart. if i could take back all the times i hurt her and our fights that were my fault i would. she deserves the best and i cant wait to continue to love her in 2018. im in love, honest. what’s remarkable about it is that i didnt know if i ever had the capacity to love someone this much, or be in a relationship this long. ive always struggled with balancing the idea of being free versus being with someone. in 2018 i’ll have to figure out if i can have both. it’s hard. it really is hard sometimes but this relationship has taught me a lot about being in a relationship and that relationships don’t have to suck or ruin your life lol. i really am happy. 

...

2018 will be...  an internship and figuring out my first next step after i graduate

[ohkimani]

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i try to be a good friend. i really do. im always running around all over the place for everyone doing what i can to make sure all of my friends are just fine but sometimes, like tonight at jessie’s birthday dinner, i was just so annoyed with......,,,,,myself. like it just seemed like i couldnt control myself for like two seconds. i was constantly talking and being flamboyant and just so out there and fucking obnoxious. i dont want to be that friend that’s making the most noise at the table anymore. i hate being the one who cracks a dark joke out of nowhere and everyone just gets super quiet and uncomfortable. i just wish i wasnt so.......,..much(??) i hate it. then why im not my loud obnoxious piece of shit self, everyone is like “what’s wrong why are you being such a bitch blah blah blah” and im like “okay yall literally give me side eyes or dont know how to react to my outlandish statements like all the time what’s wrong now that im not being ugly” you know? i just dont know who to be anymore and i dont know if it’s because i was around so many people i know again or if it’s because i really dont have any self control. i know i talk loud (when im not mumbling) because i have terrible hearing and cant really tell how loud im talking but i dont know if anyone else knows that or cares but either way that’s my fault. there were only 12 of us but now i see my social setting maximum capacity is probably like 7-8 people including myself. i just start trying too hard because im so overstimulated and excited about being around people i know. idk. it didnt make it any better that i thought i looked cute and then when jessie and i walked in, everyone talked about how much skinnier i looked but it’s jessie’s birthday you know? she spent hours going back and forth between her mirror and my room to pick the perfect outfit. i guess im just tired of being that annoying friend and no one ever tells me when im doing something annoying so im sitting there afraid to say anything because there’s a part of my body that’s like “shut the fuck up theyre tired of hearing about that. they’re tired of hearing from you. you’re tiresome. what the fuck are you even doing here.” maybe im falling back into that hole that i was in before but this always seems to follow some big gathering. i just get completely absorbed in all of the wrong i did that previous night and i isolate. like literally right now i dont think i want to go to class this week just because i dont want to see anyone and lose control over myself again because im literally like a fucking dog that sees you and ends up clawing your legs when they try to hop on you. i wish i just...had some sort of filter. like a friend of mine was passing around pictures of a transgender girl at our school and making everyone look at it and pick her apart. the one point in the night when i was serious was right then because that was fucking disgusting. so i told her how i thought what she was doing was wrong and that her gender or transition is no one’s business but her own. but she was just trying to justify herself by saying she has never been exposed to different types of people so she doesnt know how to handle it and what not but i just.....i couldnt deal with it,. then i could tell everyone else at the table felt awkward because i had said something but i was just as mad at them because they were the ones taking the phone from her to look at the pictures instead of refusing or knowing that what they were doing was wrong. so instead i look like the obnoxious SJW friend who always has to ruin everyone’s fun. that was exhausting and at that point i just proceeded to throw the rest of the night away. so i gulped down three more glasses of champagne and let myself go.....as usual. ive noticed myself depending on alcohol a lot more lately. not A LOT more but more than usual. i think it’s because ive found my taste in alcoholic beverages so i just continue to hunt after them like rosé and pink moscato and champagne. greta was talking about how i always drink her entire bottle by myself and as she was saying that, i was pouring myself more champagne. the thing is, im not even sure what im repressing so much now that i have to be some type of intoxicated every single night. it’s been at least 8 or 9 nights and i still havent passed on a drop of alcohol at least before bed. i mean when im with him, i just feel so outside of this world. like when we’re in my room and just being playful and he’s just being himself because im being myself, i dont feel all of the self-conscious and self aware things that go through my head like usual. of course i havent given him all of myself completely but i dont think i have to. i think we both have this unspoken understanding about our minds and emotions. we’re on the same level but he’s much better about smiling at everything meanwhile i contemplate the pleasure of death at least once a day.like fuck, i was sunbathing today and while greta was talking i was literally thinking about how i could kill myself without anyone finding me because im a little more than sure it woudlnt change anything. and i know everyone who says that just seems like theyre looking for attention and validation but it’s just like when mia asked me if there was anything stopping me from going through with it and i said ‘no’ then she asked if i cared about how my loved ones would feel and i finally looked up and made eye contact with her. i could tell she was already worried but when i said ‘why would i care if they cared if im already dead. i wont be able to feel or know anything.’ im still not sure what the point of this all is, honestly. i just tend to rant for hours now because i have no idea who would even care to hear me anymore besides medical professionals who are paid to listen to me. i dont want to be annoying. i just want to close off into a corner and never come out. i know i have to go to class tomorrow but i just already dont feel the strength in my soul to so much as look at another human being. it would be great to just not be seen for a few days honestly. of course i probably wouldnt be able to get away with that considering ‘tall and awkward’ has me on high alert and is down for what ever at any second. i wouldnt feel right just going missing like i usually do because now we have more of a connection than before. it’s also scaring me a lot now too because even as im laying here in bed, i can still smell him on my pillows. i tried to go back to sleep after he left today but i couldnt without his arm around me. that’s what scares me. depending on someone else for some sort of comfort or retreat. what happens when they leave? everyone leaves. i just know something is going to happen with him AGAIN that’s going to make me want to fling myself out of a window or something. then again, as they say, ‘third time’s the charm’. maybe time 3 around will be much better because it already feels better. my problem is feeling like im no longer allowed to say anything more than ‘hi” “bye” “oh really” im sorry” to people i see now simply because i dont want to inconvenience them and force them to be an open ear for me. he;s just too good to be true and losing someone like him at this point for me could be so fucking devastating. and i just mean if we ever ended up have to go back to square one as barely friends. i dont know if i could take that. i havent seen this boy since 10 AM and i feel like there is air blowing through my chest, you know? he’s just become such a great friend first and i know he feels it too. anyway time for me to stop being an annoying little fucking bitch cunt at this point im so tirred. dont read this.

[ceceliapegasus]

@ ami wtf why r u such a liar tbh

friend, i do not know but i really meant it when i said i’d bottle my emotions but this weekend’s latest stress escapade may or may not have seriously given me an aneurysm lm@0

wnya sorry not sorry nobody actually reads this and to the one person i know that does read this, i am so sorry i do not deserve you as a friend because i am actually a terrible person as you will see ahead, but i love and appreciate you and any future friendship you may give me, thank you for always being there

ahem ahem

TO START OFF: IT IS DAY FOUR OF MY LEFT TEMPORAL HEADACHE IT IS MOST LIKELY CAUSED BY THE BUILDING STRESS OF THIS WEEKEND WHICH INCLUDED 2 MAJOR TESTS, WHICH I WAS /NOT/ ADEQUATELY ABLE TO STUDY FOR PLUS THE EMOTIONAL LABILITY OF MY OWN STUPIDITY WORRYING ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE ABSOLUTELY /NOT/ MY BUSINESS AND TO WHICH I HAVE /NO/ REASON TO BE “ UPSET “ OVER IT MAY OR MAY NOT BE GETTING WORSE I MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE TRIED GOOGLING IT AND AM NOW IN THE “ DO I HAVE A BRAIN TUMOR OR A RIDICULOUSLY OVERDUE AND WEEKLONG MIGRAINE / TENSION HEADACHE “ ? ? ?

anyway this long diary.txt dump , i am hoping will alleviate the headache itself, by coming clean with my “ emotional baggage “ weh ami, weh

uh, just to document my progress ?

i take nightly flexeril ( 10 mg ) and motrin ( 600 mg ) and have been for the past week ( ? ) - ish and this is unchanged

i took one 500 mg tylenol 3 days ago, no relief to headache

2 days ago, took 1000 mg of tylenol for the headache, no improvement

yesterday, took a total of 2000 mg tylenol, 100 in the morning and 1000 with my nightly flexeril and motrin after dinner, no improvement

today around 1330, took an aleve ( 220 mg ), nothing

about an hour ago, at like, 2130 ? i took an aspirin ( 81 mg ) just to test if im stroking out or smth from all the bad emo stuff im putting myself through but it has done nothing yet

which is both good ( i didnt have a stroke ? ) and bad ( my head still hurts )

im on the verge of tears, which is making my headache worse again honestly, but i cant help it and im just so lonely and unstable right now

but anyway, to the main ( ? ) point of this post i suppose

ive been stressing over something not within my capacity of control nor is it any of my business being upset over because it physically has nothing to do with me but i am inherently a jealous person and have been since all of my previous friendships ( ? ) have ended the same way and as i have repeatedly grinded in my oh-so personal-online-not-really-personal-and-actually-very-public diary right here, ive never liked who i was, i dont think i ever will, and no matter how much i want to change i do not think my emotions will, lol :3c

essentially, i suppose change makes me uncomfortable

i ,, , dont even want to get into this because its ridiculously obvious when i say it out loud but im so uncomfortable with the fact that someone i know and felt so close to did not disclose their personal affairs to me, which is, fucking, absolutely, NONE OF MY !! GODDAMN BUSINESS !! SO WHY AM I ?? SO NOSY !?

but due to this fact, having been left in the dark to let my brain think whatever bad thoughts it wants, i have become uncomfortable with the people they hang out with the most due to the ... sexual openness the friend displays ( ? ) towards my said friend when said friend never ... mentioned anything ??? about them or this aspect even tho said friend is low key not open about their personal life at all... ( which isnt bad ) which is why i never spoke of this situation at all, up until a point where it became ( too late to ask and ) obvious and out in the open that, wow, ami you big buffoon, this was consensual the whole time probably and is now public, congrats you disgusting shitstain for thinking otherwise and, for being a terrible person because theyre cute together and appreciate each other very much

and to be perfectly honest im just acting like a kid who had their favorite toy taken / given away, and i demand to be treated as such a fool because i deserve nothing but pity in this situation

but uh, point in case tldr i just, had to unfollow a sweet person, whom i actually share a few interests with, i noticed, but nonetheless a nice person who has been nothing but sweet and civil to me, simply because we share a common friend and said mutual is happy while i marinate in envy hell b/c i feel like ive been kicked out of the bff spot ? ? ? ( SEE: X ) even tho im sure, in retrospect, i never owned the spot nor did it exist firstly

ANYWAY, thats as vague as i can GET without it being obvious but it still is obvious eskbjvldznsfbohdnljbs

if you finished this, feel free to CONFRONT ME cause i mean honestly i made a big deal out of this for nothing cause i felt bad and it snowballed and i still feel bad but for 30 extra reasons so im at that point, sorry

UHM, ANYWAY x2, i hope this somehow helps with the headache ? cause this is the only thing i can honestly think of that is legitimately causing it

and i put my gross ass out there so no ragrets i guess. ill blow my brains out tho if it doesnt improve b/c that just leads me more to believe i gave myself a tumor for /NOTHIN/

i just somehow came to the conclusion you were being extorted or something so here we are wwwwwwwwwww and now i guess im bitter cause i was wrong ? i DUNNO, sorry

ur also free to shoot me after reading this whole atrocious shebang :3c treat me like dirt step on m i dont deserve your friendship, in all seriousness, or the attention it took to get through this shady ass note soo lemme know !  ♡ if u wanna

SIGH DONE FINITE-O BAM

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sorry i know this is a lot, need to get this outbit of background. in the start of 2018 I [24M] realized how antisocial i was and unfriendly towards people. Then i made more of an effort to connect with people and went to a party and met this girl who showed a bit of interest in me.what ultimately happened was that as we chatted for a few months, i let romantic interest hijack my thoughts and put a lot of valence on something that wasnt there. i would compulsively check her socials for activity. but even when we were talking it was odd and difficult because i felt more alone then i was before and i was overthinking a lot. eventually as her interest waned, i got the sign and deleted her from socials, meditated, got a good job, continued to try to be a better person and got over it.fast forward to september 1. im at my favourite dj show having a good time, and i got this girls number [24F] and we really hit it off that night. she lives kinda far from me and we texted daily for 3 weeks. it was too good to be true at this point, she was showing genuine interest in me and wanted to see me. we hung out on the 4th week and had an amazing, intimate weekend.i tried to guard myself by rationalizing that she must do this with guys frequently, and i was no exception. but the following day she texted me and said she had a good time with me. we continue texting for 3 weeks and tried to meet up soon as we could since she was travelling to southeast asia but we were both busy. but the week before she left, she just ghosted me for 3 days untill double texted her and i asked her about hobby progress. she responded saying she “sucks at texting sometimes”, and continued the convo, where i responded “i thought you ghosted me lol” and i tried to continue the convo. and then she ghosted me for another 3 days till i asked if everything was ok, to which she responded that there was family stuff going on. and i acknowledgeda few days later, the night she was leaving for her trip, i was drunk and sent her a gushy ‘safe travels’ text putting her on a pedestal and saying i care about her, i think shes an amazing person and i couldnt forget about her. she thanked me and apologized about being a bit distant because of ‘life stuff’. 2 weeks later i wished her happy birthday and she thanked meinbetween here she unliked one for the three tweets she liked of mine, yeah idk (it was the only like so it was obvious lol)3 days ago, as i assumed she was back from her trip, i texted her asking how she is and got no response for about a day so i double texted her saying we should talk in a couple weeks after my final exams to sort things outthe story i tell myself is that she is going through a lot. i guess( based on what shes told me and her twitter activity) her real dad didnt want to be a part of her life, and therefore lacks the capacity to engage with me as she did before.but damn i like her. everything seemed right and we have a lot of similarities. it felt like we had a really good connection. i wanna be there for her unconditionally but its been weighing me down a lot. i let my guard down because she showed genuine interest and talking to her/ hanging with her made me feel confident and like i could be more of myself.am i romanticizing a platonic interest? it now feels the same way it did last year where im overthinking and assuming that shes the one, although there is way more reciprocation in this situation.should i just accept the L? shes giving me mixed signals but she doesnt care enough to not ghost me, like what would i even say to her in a couple weeks when i declared we should talk? if i just dont get ghosted again. i want to delete her from socials start moving on but i also would like closure given theres stuff going on with her.maybe i could be more patient but i also need to disentangle myself from being blindly hopeful things will work out with her. how do i be hopeful for the future and tell myself im gonna meet someone with a better spark/connection.i know i should just be chill and accept that ppl go through things but its hard because that implies that im waiting/allowing her to come back if in my life.along with exams stress this has been giving me a lot of anxiety and my focus has pretty bad for a good part of this semester. ive really grown as an individual over the last year but i feel right back where i started. via /r/dating_advice

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Im 17,male. got my driving test in a couple of weeks. I already have a car but i cant find insurance anywhere for what i can afford! the cheapest ive found is about 2800. my car is a 1.1 peugeot 1997 106 xl independance. I got this model thinking it would be cheaper to insure because its alarmed, you have to enter a code before you can start the engine. i cant afford to pay almost 3 grand! im lookin to pay 1100-1200. the only way ive found this is if i put it as my mums car and me as a named driver but i know this would be fraud... ive been told the company quinn is cheap but i called them and they quoted me around 3400... my postcode is in the low catagory or a or whatever and the car will be parked on a drive! any ideas?""

How do you get new home owner's insurance after you were dumped?

Hypothetically speaking, say your home owner's insurance company does NOT renew your policy? How long do you have to find a new company and what if no company will take you on due to too many claims?""

I have a question about a car wreck and insurance?

I got rear-ended the other day and it's the first time I've ever been in an accident. I got an estimate and it was $1800 dollars. I paid $800 for the car! I have heard of people using the money for other things, I was wondering can I just keep the money and sell the car and maybe buy a new one, or do I have to have it fixed at the place I got the estimate at? I'm also wondering if there is anything I should look out for as far as crafty insurance people? He's coming to inspect the car tomorrow. Thanks for your reply.....""

How much will buying a 2005 Mistubishi Lancer Evolution 8 raise my insurance premium?

I'm looking into buying a new car and I'm a bit of a motor head and like to race. The Evo 8 is my next choice, but I can't find out how much it will raise my premium. Anyone know? If it helps, my insurance provider is Allstate.""

Whats better an automatic s10 or a 5 spd s10 and which will be cheaper on insurance single cab or ext cab?

Whats better an automatic s10 or a 5 spd s10 and which will be cheaper on insurance single cab or ext cab?

Whats the cheapest car insurance company in Michigan?

I'm moving out of my parents house in a few months, and am at the point of looking at car insurance rates. I've always just paid my fees on their shared account, which was only about $25. Friends in Ohio that also live on their own pay about $80 on their own plans per month, and they have accident histories. When I ask for quotes with a clean history, Progressive gave me a $350 quote! What's the best company to go through? Or at least top 3? I just want minimum coverage because that's all I can afford for now.""

I want to insure my car for only 4 months?

Can I do this and if so how? and what is the cheapest way? I used to be with Direct Line but canceled it when I went to Uni. Now I want my car back on the road but only for the summer holidays. Any company suggestions and how much it would cost would be great, its an M reg ford fiesta and im 19 if that makes any difference. Please help, Thanks :-)""

I pay more for auto insurance than medical insurance?

And no, im not a bad driver. Will Obama have some sort of auto insurance reform next to help us out? Look at how many Americans dont have car insurance but drive anyways.""

Appeals for insurance company?

i was wondering on average how long does it take for a car insurance company to process appeals if someone knows it would be greatly appreciated

Which is cheaper to insure? Car or SUV?

As a 16 year old looking for their first car, I can't quite decide what kind to chose so I though I'd narrow it down by seeing what is going to be less costly. So first of all car or suv? Also, if you could be specific on certain makes and models that you would personally recommend.""

Speeding tickets and insurance?

If I just got a ticket for speeding today and would like to take it to court, will it appear on my insurance statements right away or do I actually have to be found guilty and THEN it will appear on the statements?""

""Driving other cars, insurance policy for under 25?""

does anyone know of any insurance companies that offer DOC on their comprehensive insurance policy for an under 25? If not, how much roughly would a weeks insurance cost on another car?""

I am looking for my auto insurance statement so I can see if my husband paid our insurance?

where do i go on the net so that I can view our previous payments on our insurance

Should my car insurance go up this high after an accident?

I got into an accident where I hit someone s bumper in a parking lot. I reported to my insurance company and they took care of it with $750. I was 100% at fault, and expected my renewal to go up, but when it came out, it was $800, which is 100% more than my usual insurance of $400 Does it suppose to go up 100%??!!! And this price will stay on for 6 years!!! That means by the end, I would end up paying $1800 more just to the company!! $1000 more than what I would've paid the guy!! This does not make sense to me whatsoever, first I thought the renewal was just for one year, it will go down bit by bit, but second year is still the same price! I am only a G2 driver who been driving for 3-4 years on PEI in Canada, can that be the reason? Still, $1800 extra?? Plz help me and thank you!""

COBRA health insurance...?

is there anyone who recently left the military? How does the COBRA health insurance work?

Can insurance company tell you were you can have your car fixed?

I have had a few cases were a relative has been in an auto accident and I could have fixed the car for them and done a much better job but the insurance company tells them they have to take the car to a preferred body shop for the insurance to pay. Can the insurance company actually tell people were to get their car fixed now a days? Is there a way to get the money out of the insurance company so they can take the car and have it fixed were they want the car fixed?

What to do if someone doesn't want to use car insurance to pay for accident but pay privately?

Someone just rear ended me. There are deep scratches on the bumper. He has car insurance, but doesn't want to use it. I got most of his information - driver's license #, car insurance info, ect. What are the steps I should take? My car insurance company said I have to call in and report accidents as soon as they happen. Should I do this in case he doesn't follow through and pay me for repairs? Should I go get an estimate right now, and have him send me a check?""

Car insurance?

My husband and I are planning on getting a new car and we're looking through auto-trader.com and finding a lot of good cars but is there a website you can go to to calculate how much the insurance of each car to help us narrow our decision down?

Will insurance fix a car that someone hit?

Someone hit my car and I did not get their license plate. Will my insurance fix my car? The damage is not so great, and it is somewhat hit.""

Getting car insurance with a suspended license?

I posted this question a couple days. I thought I would share my information. My son (not having a valid Drivers License) was able to obtain car insurance through a reputable insurance company. We went to the DMV and got his new registration for his car, and showed proof of insurance. He has 45 days to show he paid his tickets and his license was reinstated. Just thought I would share this information.""

What insurance plan should I go with?

I'm a full-time college student and I work part-time. I have no insurance but need to get some soon. What health insurance do you think I should go with that is affordable?

Do I have to wait until after I get a car to get auto insurance?

I do NOT have a vehicle yet but I am planning on getting one within the next few months. So I've been trying to research auto insurance rate quotes but they all ask me what I kind of a car I have, how long I've had it and what security features are with the car under the assumption that I already own something. So I can't just research different companies without having a vehicle already. However, I thought you had to have car insurance BEFORE I buy the car. Is this false?""

Can you have 2 insurance policies on one car?

I have recently passed my test and wanted to be added to my partners insurance. They don't except people who haven't held a license for less than 2 years? Is it possible for me too take out my own insurance on her car?

Ive had my plates for a year with no insurance how can i get my license back?

i had a lapse and just never turned in my plates i never been stopped by police but i just got a nice car that i want to get registred

Bicycle insurance?

i bought a new bike yesterday from JJB and i just called in JJB today to find out if they do bike insurance and the lady told me that they dont! where can i get bike insurance from?

Question about car insurance for a Honda Civic Si?

Ok so I'm 16, I just got a job and I have my permit and as soon as I get my license I'm going to be buying a car. I have already chosen my car. A 2006-2010 Honda Civic Si. The question is should I get the Honda Civic Si Coupe or the Sedan? Will the insurance be any different between the two or will it be very close if not the same? Thanks for all information.""

How should I renew my car insurance in this case of seperation (not yet divorced)?

My husband and I separated 6 months ago. our divorce is not yet final (an other 6 months to go). My car insurance is due, and i want to pay the next 6 months. I've always been on my husband's car insurance. what points should i pay attention to while discussing the policies with the insurance agent? some tips to avoid paying extra fees (with no necessities) please share tips / suggestions. Thank you !""

Delaware auto insurance (state required minimum) cheaper than Geico?

Which company gives Delaware auto insurance (state required minimum) cheaper than Geico? I tried every known companies (Progressive, Nationwide, 21st etc) but I can't find out any...Does anybody know any cheaper option?""

Good home owners insurance rate?

I am purchasing a new home. It is 2400sq feet, plus a finished basement and a finished attic. Also, there is an additional detached garage. The replacement value was placed at $230,000. I was quoted $800/year for 100% replacement value and $1000 deductible. OR $600/year with 80% replacement value and $2500 deductible. This is through State Farm, and I am purchasing the home in Pennsylvania. Are these good quotes for home owners insurance?""

Life insurance maturity after 7 years?

I have a case where an insurance company will owes xxx amount of dollar after 7 years because the life insurance claim made to a person is missing. Insurance company won't pay till this person is certified dead which in state of IL wait for that is 7 years. So the question is when this person do gets paid will the insurance company pay it 7 years interest on it? + the premium that is paid for the next 7 years after the claim is made.

Whats affordable health insurance to get for myself and son?

my job offers health insurance that is way to expensive and i cant afford the 666$ a month they wanna charge how do i go about applying for something that ll cover me and my son and is actually affordable

Car insurance in Massachusetts?

What happens in the state of Massachusetts if you get pulled over and have no insurance but there is insurance on the car and I'm 17 years of age.

Is it a legal requirement to have insurance when you are self employed?

I am about to sign a contract, as a self-employed contractor, and one of the point refers to me having liability insurance. Is it a legal requirement?""

Please help me about the contens of an insurance certificate .?

Can you give me the contents of the insurance certificate ? The different between insurance certificate and insurance policy ?

Auto insurance cost?

I can't really get a quote from a car insurance web site. (It's a long story) I don't really know much about auto insurance at all. How much do you think my insurance would be? I'm a 20 year old female. I haven't ever had a ticket. The car I am potentially buying is a 2009 jeep grand Cherokee. that's $30,000 to $35,000. I would have a $20,000 loan. (my father would be co signing) since I have a loan I'd have to get full coverage. Any one got any idea of how much my rates would be?""

Good car for a 18 year old thats cheap on insurance?

Hi, i just turned 18 and recently have been looking in purchasing a used car. my budget is about $5000 and I will be able to afford my own insurance. I dont want a very low quality but i also cant afford a mercedes. So what do you think i should look at? I live in Ontario Canada btw.""

How will my insurance handle a guy that hit someones head in my car?

a guy hit someones head into my car and says he wants to go through insurance to pay for it. I had nothing to do with it, I just happened to be there, but theres a good sized dent. Is this going to make my rates go up? i took it to get an estimate and was around $450""

Insurance under Obama care?

I am 22 years old and graduated a week ago. My parents have insurance through trustmark insurance and I've been recently hired on full time for a management position. Being a full time employee, I have the opportunity to get my own insurance or waive it. I've heard that I should be able to stay on my parents insurance until I am 26. However, I've also heard that I would need to be a student in order to continue on staying on my parents insurance. So essentially I am asking whether I should be able to stay on my parents insurance until I am 26? If my wage is needed for this, I make 14$ an hour. My parents are more than willing to keep me on their employers insurance.""

Which insurance agencies help pay for braces?

I need braces and I'm looking for a good affordable insurance agency that I can get them through.

Life insurance?

I'm 22 years old guy, I just got my life insurance. I pay like 200 bucks each month,and $65 of it goes to the life insurance and the rest is going to my cash value account. my coverage amount is 250K and is increasing. I was wondering what you guys think about life insurance? Is it a good thing to have? Is it a good insurance or not?""

False Auto Insurance Claim Against A Friend?

A very close friend of mine received a call from his auto insurer yesterday regarding a 3rd party claim against him. According to the 3rd party, my friend hit their parked car (which was parked on the curb in front of their home), then parked his own car, went up to their house, rang their doorbell and exchanged insurance information. The 3rd party claims that this took place in a town that's more than 1 hour away from where we work and live. This allegedly happened 3 months ago. There are two major problems with this story: A- The alleged incident never happened. I carpool with my friend to and from work and was with him that night. B- The 3rd party has all of his insurance information. Could the insurance company have called the wrong person (i.e. gotten policy numbers mixed-up while processing the claim)? If not, how could a 3rd party have his insurance information? How common are fraudulent insurance claims (against another person)? And has anything similar happened to you or someone you know? My friend is a little worried because there is some minor damage to his rear bumper. We live in a major city and pretty much every 3rd car has nicks and scratches along the bumper from parking garage 'mysteries' and whatnot. Also, about 8 months ago, a young woman rear-ended us while we stationary, waiting to turn left at an intersection. Other than a scratch to his rear bumper caused by her license plate bolt, there was no cosmetic damage, and while we exchanged insurance information, my friend decided not to file a claim (she was very nice and didn't look as though she had a lot of money). I'd hate to think that it's her trying to commit fraud against him...""

How much does motorcycle insurance typically cost?

good credit, driving record, etc...""

Why is insurance for young men expenisive?

Why is insurance so expensive for young men? Why is it more expensive for young men (16 to 25) than for women the same age?

Affordable health insurance plans?

The company where I work has just informed me that they will be canceling our medical benefits at the end of this month. What are some decent plans that I can get on my own that arent too expensive. I was paying $100.00 per month thru my job and would like to keep my premium around the same. I live in Wisconsin. Thanks for any advice.

Do you have auto insurance?

Is it mandatory for you to have auto insurance?

How is Progressive for auto insurance?

I am a veteran and a USAA member, so my insurance is a slightly lower than the average person. However, I recently got a claim from Progressive that they could give me the same coverage for $850 dollars (200 less than USAA). Is this too good to be true? My USAA agent told me that they were probably pulling a bait and switch; they would probably raise my rates as soon as I signed the policy. Does anyone have any feedback or information to share about Progressive? Is it really that affordable or is it just a scam?""

What insurance plan should I go with?

I'm a full-time college student and I work part-time. I have no insurance but need to get some soon. What health insurance do you think I should go with that is affordable?

Would a MINI COOPER 1275 CLASSIC be a good first car?

I will be 17 in July and soon after will be learning to drive. My dad said he will get me a car for my birthday. I really like this model of a classic mini and the ones I have been looking at are going for about 640+ but I am willing to pay about 1000 (maybe a little more!! ) for one. I am aware that Classic Minis are going up in price. Will this be a good car for a new driver??

Can I cancel my auto insurance because I am leaving the country for 3 months?

I am leaving the USA for 3 months so I was wondering if it would be possible to cancel my auto insurance for these months and not pay the monthly premium. I will not be driving the ...show more

What would be the average cost for these with a Hyundai i20?

what would be the average cost for these with a Hyundai i20 budgeting for running costs -car repayments -ongoing insurance and registration payments -car maintenance -tyres -petrol

Is Geico car insurance good or bad? What's your experience?

I've had Allstate for 11 years but now I need to cut costs and Geico is SO much cheaper than Allstate. The thing is, there's no local agent or office. Maybe that's why they're so cheap. Anyhow, I'd like to hear your experience with Geico, good or bad?""

""My boyfriend that has no insurance borrowed my car and got rear ended, will my insurance cover?""

I let my boyfriend take my car to go drop off his friend and he ended getting backed into by a truck and severely damaged my back bumper. Because it was on private property, the police couldn't do anything but observe us exchanging information. My boyfriend doesn't have insurance, but my car is insured. Will my insurance company be able to cover my damages, even though I was not present? This accident was the trucker's fault because he backed into my car, but this guy didn't even have an ID but the car was his family & supposedly it's insured. Please no smart remarks, I am asking because I'd appreciate some advice.""

""Insurance,if I buy a car and get my dad to registered keeper and owner and he insures it wi me as main driver?""

Is this legal their is a space on go compare ask n who the main driver would be ive got dr10 ins10 twice lc20 All from 2008 so cheapest quote is 5k. My dad also has his car too with 8 yrs no claims so idea is to insure my car registered in his name with the 8 yrs no claim s wi me as main driver and insure his car without no claims bonus got a quote on go compare 1000 for my car wr dad as registered keeper me as main driver and he would have to pay on his own car with no claims bonus not on should still b cheaper than , ,5k help!""

If my someone else drove my car & got into an accident would they be responsibe for the damages or would I?

If my someone else drove my car & got into an accident would they be responsibe for the damages or would I?

Crashed car 3rd party no-one else injured what to do with insurance?

I'm in my first year of driving as a 17 yr old male and i crashed damaging my car beyond repair. My insurance is only 3rd party and that cost 3200 no-one else was involved however the police,ambulance and fire were present. What shall i do, do i inform the insurance company however without making a claim? Do i scrap the car and change my insurance? What are my options to prevent the premium going even higher than it already is.""

Young driver insurance in the UK?

I was quoted 1200 the beginning of this month for car insurance (its due feb, but I regularly look at quotes). I then looked the 23rd and was quoted over 2000 for identical insurance (just by refreshing the quote). It has then increased drastically every day by around 1000 so its now looking at over 5000 a year to insure a 2007 FORD KA!!! I'm 17 and have 6 months no claims, plus the time I had no claims as a learner too (another 4 months). I understand that the equal insurance for men & women effects this and due to my age insurance is high, but two of my male friends insurance is shooting up too. I'm in a pretty good area, don't drive that much (3000 miles a year) and have both parents with 25+ years driving on my policy. How can my insurance possibly be increasing be so much? What can I do to bring it down, other then selling a car I need? I need a car to get from school to work in time (or I won't have a job), and I don't earn nearly enough to afford car insurance with the quotes I'm getting right now. Its a complete rip-off.""

Insulin and car insurance?

a friend of mine has just been put onto insulin, will this effect the cost of her car insurance?""

What are the insurance rates on a chevy S10?

it is a 2-door, v6, 2WD, extended cab truck, no mods, just stock""

Car insurance and court hearing?

i drove my car without insurance and got by police got 6 points as i m on provisional then again after 2 months i got a car just to move in local place like for shopping and instead of geting a cab i thought i can use it but the moment i bought it i was driving back home police stopped me coz 1 break light was not working and got again points but the point is dvla didnt sent me a disqualification notice and after 3 months i was driving my friends car as it was just a scrap and had no fuel i was in petrol pump abt 12 at night police guys caught be because my friend was making some funny sounds there so got hearing and 1 yr ban...can some one tell me how much fine will i get and will they sentence me for jail...any help will be appriciated

How much car insurance a month for a 16 year old?

I live in the state of Louisiana. My family has Progressive. I plan on driving soon.

Im 18 and live on my own...but im on my parents insurance still. can my parents see what i go to the dr for cuz im using their insurance?

Im 18 and live on my own...but im on my parents insurance still. can my parents see what i go to the dr for cuz im using their insurance?

Car insurance I'm gonna leave my car away from home at work?

Where can I get car insurance I am going leaving my car at my work Monday to Friday which company will provide me

Cheap health insurance that will cover dental?

I need some help. I can no longer work at one of my jobs and my new job wont provide insurance since it is part-time I need help and scared that i cant afford anything. i already cant afford student loans. is there any cheap insurance packages i can get in ct?

What should i look for in Health Insurance? ?

i am 19, ill be 20 on 10/29. live on my own.(so i kinda have a budget) this year i went to see a doctor 3 times so far... (when i had health insurance) i dont get sick often but when i do get sick, i get really sick... i dont just get a cough... i get it all. ear infections. fevers, ect. i usually end up in the emergency room about once a year. so what should i look for in health insurance? thanks!!""

Should I buy life insurance from Transamerica?

I have read that AEGON owns Transamerica Life insurance. There is a posting that both are potential scams. One warning was about health insurance. Is there a connection between the life insurance and the health insurance? The Transamerica building in San Francisco is shaped like a Pyramid. Wouldn't it be something if........

Car insurance quotes?

I have just spent an endless amount of time on various car insurance sites, which start of with reasonable quotes then you add the bits and pieces on and you end up with ridiculous final costs. I am not insuring a 0-60 in 5 seconds type car but a small 1.4 Honda I am fully aware that any car can cause damage,my wife drives the car,has had no claims or convictions. I have a larger car and the insurance is 50 cheaper than all quotes received so far,which includes breakdown recovery,protected no claims and legal cover. anyone with car insurance advice would be appreciated, these car insurance sites are a pain""

Low Cost Health Insurance?

I am contemplating quitting my job and going full time to school so that I can have a fresh start with a new career. It would be fine if it was just me, but I have 2 kids and I am single. With school I would work about 40 hours/week doing clinicals at the hospital plus my school work, so I wouldn't be able to work as well. I know I could get state assistance with medical but I did that before and it was the absolute worst healthcare I've ever experienced. They treated us like we were scum. I want my kids to be well taken care of for the few semesters that I would be out of work. I will be getting all of the student loans that I can to pay for basic expenses and hopefully some sort of sliding scale healthcare...Any ideas?""

Question about affordable/good health insurance?

Question about affordable/good health insurance?

How to get a hold of the drunk drivers insurance?

my car and 2 other cars were damaged by a drunk driver. his car flipped and crashed on the ground. they ran away as soon as they got helped out. the police came and all we got was a police report number. my question is my car is scratched and has broken windows/mirror. i am not going to pay for it to get it fix , why should i it wasn't my fault. how can i get a hold off the drunk drivers insurance and policy information. will the police contact me after they get all the information or do i have to contact them? sorry i have never had to deal with the insurance company or the police for any of this so i have no idea. if this matter i live in san diego california""

""I was involved in a car accident on august 4, I got rear ended the how much will the insurance company settle4?

how much will a insurance company compensate you

Is this normal for home insurance?

I have AAA-California home insurance and we had an incident yesterday involving a squirrel and our fire suppression sprinkler lines. AAA says they only cover the damage caused (carpets, sheetrock, moisture, etc.) by the squirrel eating through the lines, but will not cover the cost of repairing the lines. Is this standard for all home insurance, or do I just have a crappy policy?""

SERIOUS! Car insurance HELP!?

Ok, First things first please keep your ignorant opinions to yourself, i got a question most importantly im not an exception i am just asking a honest question others seem to fail. age:16 state:PA, MALE now not like other kids who think they want to go fast and stuff, fast and furious, ridiculous things i was researching cars like that, that happened to be non Lame to them but i need something for economy with todays gas prices, i am saving up a sum of money and wish to get a part time job so i can afford the car as well as insurance! i took interest in a 1990 s FORD MUSTANG I-4 take notice this is a 4 cylinder not a v6 or v8 i need honest opinions on insurance i dont think it will not be as astronomical as a GT take notice this is a LX 4 cylinder i need help opinions quotes.""

What insurance plan should I go with?

I'm a full-time college student and I work part-time. I have no insurance but need to get some soon. What health insurance do you think I should go with that is affordable?

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